Caught Between Wrong & Right...

[Current Mood: | Embarrassed |]

Something happened today tht totally made me hate myself~!!!

The other side of me revealed itself~

I'm NOT the gurl whom everyone thought i was..

Truth be told ~

• I'm not as KIND as you think I am...
• I'm not as NICE as you think I am...
• I'm not as GOOD as you think I am...
• I'm not as CARING as you think I am...
• I'm not as EMPATHETIC as you think I am...
• I'm not a GOOD FRIEND as you think I am...
• I'm not as GENUINE as you think I am...
• I'm not as LOVING as you think I am...
• I'm not as UNDERSTANDING as you think I am...
  
• I'M NOT WHO YOU THINK I AM AT ALL!!!

I wear a MASK of my IDEAL SELF when I help you~!!!
Pls don't see me as your BEST FRIEND whom you can count on ALL THE TIME!!!
You may think I'm NOT JUDGEMENTAL ~ BUT I AM!!!!

PLS DON'T BE DECEIVED BY MY APPEARANCE!!!

I was NOT WILLING to help you ~ but it's cuz of SYMPATHY I decide to help you~
I'm sorry for that~!!! I TRULY AM!!!
I'm sorry tht I lead you into believing these LIES!!!
I'm just not used to helping with your kind...

I don't FEEL COMFORTABLE around you...
I just don't know how to tell you that!!!
I'm sorry tht you will be swimming in all these LIES & DECEIT!!!
I know I should tell you the truth...

But after u told me so many horrible things bout how others treat you...
How can I have the heart to tell you that???

I think I am a really MEAN and HORRIBLE person now...
I can't even bring myself to reach out to you in all HONESTY!!
I've just let myself & mainly being a Christian DOWN...
I just ruined my reputation in CF...

WHAT HAVE I DONE???

Miko-Chan signin' off ;(

I'm just another
GREAT BIG
PRETENDER!

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Mini Updateee~!

[Current Mood: | Happy |]

I find this to be really REALLY sweet & touching!!
*sniff...*

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Can't wait for next week to come!! ZOMG!! It's gonna be the bomb larr!!!

P.S ~ It's NOTHING gotta do with New Moon coming out... ;)
(okays... maybe a lil larr...)

Nitez all~!! Pls DON'T STOP visiting vividmemories18.blogspot.com

~ A BIG AWESOME POST AWAITS~!!

Miko-Chan signin' off n_n

Do stay tune
everyone!! =)

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Lost Memories!

[Current Mood: | Cold |]

It has indeed been a VERY VERY cold day for moi~ *brrr...* Had to wear a sweater the whole morning & afternoon!!

Geez... Felt as if I was overseas... XD

Anyways, y'day I did my personality test & I'm sure this is the official one (at least I hope so...) since it was like some super-secured site...

And the results came in this morning~ WHEEE!!! I'm proud to say that I'm an....

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Also known as
"The Nurturers"

We work our butt off but we don't freaking feel it!! Nyahah ~ Tough nut!!
We are those that Give more than Receive!! ~ Don't mind to keep on giving = Communal r/ships

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With this result, gonna try to relate it to my assignment & presentation... ;)
Erik Erickson's Theory ~ GAHH!! How to relate my development with it...

I can't really recall my childhood & early adolescence years!!!
(It was too painful... guess I subconsciously reppressed them away from my conscious!!!) =(

EEiSSh... Been cracking my head to recall ~ Can't freaking recall lorr!!!

Is there ANYBODY by any chance can help me by just telling me one or two things that you remember about me during my HIGH SCHOOL years?? =D

Miko-Chan signin' off @_@

I may need
counseling
myself...

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Rants & Vents!

[Current Mood: | Angry |]

Like seriousleeeee....

Is there really a need to give me dat WTH look??? sheesh... :-\

Take advantage of my stuff ady some more want to do dat to me... NONSENSE much!!!

Sometimes, I juz get this freaky vibe from you dat u dun even want me near you!!! or dat u hate me oh-so-much!!!

Call me sensitive or wadeva u want larr ~ I'm juz being honest with my feelings & myself!! & I think it is about time I start doing dat!!!

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Anyways, letz move on with life & juz 4get bout dat whole thing (for awhile...) HMPH!!

November ~ Cool month i guess... hmm... (NAHH... not really lerr...)
Still got loadz of assignments to do & there is still the NIGHTMARE of FINALS!!!

DECEMBER is COOLER!!! =) cuz datz when my 1st sem ends!!! WooHoo!!!

DANG!!! I still can't get over the fact tht I won't be able to attend APYAC '09!!!
Wad monkey-ness...??

But.. datz still "ages away" - MAN ~ can't believe it's already the end of the year... [SO FAST!!]

okies... datz all from moi =)
Nitez ya'll!!

Miko-Chan signin' off n_n

Thursday...
ohh Thursday..
Pls dun come
so fast ya??

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